Archive for August, 2008

i think this is how i should think in rn school.. so i dont keep beating myself over mistakes that are done and dealt with, it’s just a waste of energy. seriously. i just should be this person who puts stamps on boxes…. you know? automatic, never thinking whatif, and just go with it.. i [...]


been dying to see this.. this is the lifestyle i kind of want.. musicians, poets, artists, and philosophers, just sitting at cafes discussing anything, riding bikes throughout the countryside, painting in my huge spanish house, a vineyard and wine tasting.. spanish guitar playing and piano melodies… like timeless living.. i wish i could live off my [...]


i feel trapped

26Aug08

no this is not a reference to aladdin in the disney movie. i’m doing work i dont want to do.. i have a goal, i just have to finish in one year. right now all i want to do is get out, i dont know where. my home isn’t that bad, it’s air conditioned, i [...]


i can already feel my sweaty palms from thinking about another sem of nursing.. the hardest sem, clinicals, and the workload, i cannot even fathom what the hell we’re gonna to do. well i mean i read the text, before hand, and now i have to prepare mucho more for the exam next week.. i [...]


dream time

23Aug08

so had this dream about earthquakes.. i was investigating a building.. by a lake.. or pond.. and then i had two other people with me.. we told everyone to escape because the building was going to collapse. wow. so then there was like this huge reunion at one of the sites we were investigating. my [...]


days have been lonely. i miss fun. i miss outrageous memorable fun. but i’m an adult now and that means …fun’s over. ahhaha. you should’ve had it while you were young! i did, i had a great childhood and a great highschool life. sure, i was sad.. sometimes, but most of the time i was [...]


today i cleaned the bathroom. our bathroom looks like one you would in in the dirtiest shittiest place of chinatown…. anyway, i cleaned it. yes. i know i was the only one who could do it.. a. pops is too old, mom’s too tired, and my bro is too lazy.  my bro is amazing, he [...]


i restudied crap i studied weeks ago.. and its coming around faster than i expected. YAY! so i have to look up the abvs, then finish the rest of the chapters, and do some practice problems and i think i’ll be okay for the exam.. i’m just worried because i have to get a 90% [...]


18Aug08

just when u didnt think it could get any worse. it does.


my friend broke up with her bf.. and she was bleeding in front of me.. and the fucking betrayal that i once felt.. when someone just turns away and watches you while you struggle trying to keep their hands clean… yeah. thats probably how my friend probably felt with me… and the sad thing is, [...]