Archive for October, 2008

ugh talked to my counsellor about my probation. i can either get a W, which sounds like i didnt even try, or try to get an F or a D.. sigh. which could hurt my gpa and then what happens? i dunno it all dpeneds on what i get on the next test… and 4 [...]


i have no reason to like him.. right? i dont feel it.
i dont feel our connection of words. when i talk with k it seems natural how we speak in conversation. we seemed in tuned. he seems constructed or performing somehow. unless that is how he truly is. unless he just says things to make me feel [...]


but you’re the one complaining that i dont talk very much.. here’s the small talk you wanted! haha. now i just feel like it’s forced.
today he saved a life.
damn mofo.
he does good deeds WHEEREVER HE GOES. why didnt he become a physician? he’s too good for RN SCHOOL!


is possible for people just to not interact iwth people based on how they look? 
my goals:
pass nursing school.
talk to him more.. i think its unfair i’ve excluded him while i’m nice to everyone.. i have a little prejudice again him.. but i get it. he sometimes wants to bridge the gap btw me and i’ve [...]


 
like my bro said, “why is everyday a problem for you?!” i dont know. i look forward to coming home though and telling my bro stories.
i cant believe what i siad to t… seriously. i cant believe he approached me like that. shit
 
is it possible to take yourself out of a situation completely and just [...]


well its out in the open now. he can go pound me to shreds or just ignore me or make life a living hell for me… shit. and all i wanted to do was make BUDDY BUDDY With this guy.. now i’m gonna get myself KILLED… fucking RUMORS will start and all because of that [...]


esp relationships. ppl change, they get offended, balhbalh, and sooner or later u dont even know what happened…


conflicts

14Oct08

okay first i just want to get things done.. if i cant help everyone sorry, but at least i helped someone right? or am i just being PROUD? i get this feeling like God is telling me, you are only responsible for yourself and your soul so stop trying to take care of people!!!!!!!! where [...]


is this even possible? for me to get a C and pass? is it ? please GOD.
i feel like im dying here. i still have to read 24-26 plus LandD and ugh, it just seems crazy. like, if i pass in this next test, it would be a miracle!


way too many to be bogged into 10 little lines.